WTF happened last night!

mmm k. so last night was a combination of sassy drunk boys and girl drama. combine it with alcohol and all you can say is "WTF HAPPENED LAST NIGHT!??"

but yeah. so we [me, kayla, josh, angie, & josh] went to josh's house to drink. we got there and started playing drinking games. it was a good time. then we played beer pong. which was also exciting. after that we got kinda bored and went back in the house where kayla got the bright idea to play the game "pass the ice cube" ... which if you don't know is a game like suck and blow ... only you have an ice cube in your mouth and you pass it from mouth to mouth. needless to say i got to kiss josh, josh, and kayla plenty of times. haha. it was a good time. then drama began to unfold. all of a sudden everyone left ... i had no idea where anyone was so i sat downstairs talking to my friend mark feeling like an idiot. i was pissed. then finally kayla came back and all she said to me was "where's josh" and i'm like (smart ass/sarcastic) "i don't know it's not my turn to watch him"... yeah so i ended up calling my friend mark and he kept me company for like an hour because my 'friends' are fags. anyway eventually i was like "yeah i guess i should go find everyone" so i got off the phone and walked upstairs and saw kayla talking to josh. i sat there and joined in there conversation about people that they have crushes on and people they can't get over and blah blah blah. it was a pretty good talk. then kayla left and josh could tell i was pissed/upset about something but i didn't wanna talk about it then and there cuz i was upset with kayla who was like 5 feet away. and yeah then we all went back outside to play beer pong and he saw i was still upset and was like "kayla take care of your woman" (which wasn't a good idea cuz she as the reason i was actually upset) so she came charging at me and like smashed me against a wall "hugging" me. yeah then she went back to playing beer pong and i sat around bumming out (i wasn't trying to ... but you know how sometimes shit just gets to you and you can't just brush it off ... ). then josh decided he wanted to smoke so naturally kayla decided she wanted to smoke ... even though she doesn't. after that josh wanted to walk down the street to get rid of the cigarette butts and naturally kayla went with him ... and left me sitting there by myself. sooo yeah i sat outside on the porch while josh and kayla went for a walk and angie and the other josh were in his truck making out. i felt horrible and pissed at the same time. i started messaging everyone i could think of ... hoping someone would be there to talk to so i didn't feel like such a loser. i even sent a text to ben who i promised myself i wouldn't talk to cuz he just makes me feel stupid and confused and grrrrr. i'm such a fucking idiot. and yeah as i was sitting there more people started showing up .. and since i was the only one they could see these 2 random guys come up to me. i had no idea who they were but they just started talking to me ... and for some reason they must've thought i was waaaay more drunk than i was and started touching me and trying to get me to do things which pissed me off ... and i was alone so i was just sitting there like "oh fuck someone please come back" cuz i had no idea what they intended and it scared the shit out of me. eventually a cop car ended up driving by and josh & angie freaked out and came out of the truck ... the guys backed off and we all went inside....then the other josh came running back cuz he saw the cop. we sat around talking and then eventually kayla came back and got mad that josh ditched her. but whatever. umm after that (at like 12) all of our other friends (like 5 other guys) came over. kayla was waaaay drunk and being a bitch to everyone. it was really annoying. finally josh was getting sick of it and told her to shut the fuck up. then she got all pissed off and whatever. then her phone rang (even though i think she just felt like an ass and made her phone ring to look important or something). according to her though, it was her ex-bf. then she started crying (i think for attention but whatever). everyone else went back into the house. they all played beer pong and i just kinda chilled out. then kayla came storming in. all of our other guy friends turned to me and were like "do you really like hanging out with her" and i'm like "no" and they're like "well then why do you" and i didn't really know what to say cuz the true reason is that if i don't hang out with her i'll probably never see any of my other friends which sucks balls. anyway, after kayla went storming inside josh made me follow her so she didn't get out of control and break something. sooo i did and found her in josh's parents' room crying. i asked her what was wrong and told her to talk to me about it and she pretty much told me to fuck off and leave her alone ... so i walked out and on my way out the door i was just like "fuckin bitch" cuz i was soooo sick of her shit. and yeah. then she came back out and all of the guys who came later decided they wanted to go but they all had to walk home so kayla was flipping out because this kid greg (who she fucked around with at her birthday party) was there and i'm pretty sure she wanted him to stay over so she could fool around with him again. but anyway kayla was flipping out and stuff and then when she realized that they were definitely going home she was just like "whatever fuck you guys" and then took josh outside. i opened the door to stand outside with them and she slammed it on me and i'm just like "WHAT THE FUCK" ... cuz seriously kids when i get annoyed with someone or something i am annoyed with it/them the rest of the night .. and i get annoyed fast which sucks but yeah ... so they sat outside talking and whatever while i sat inside, again by myself cuz the other josh and angie were getting it on ... then they came back inside and were like "alright lets go to bed" so i'm like ok fine. so kayla right away goes for josh's bedroom ... and josh said i could have his other bed which definitely didn't happen cuz he laid in it ... and instead of being like "oh you can sleep here i'll take the couch" he just looked at me like "umm go find a place to sleep i guess" so at this point in the night i was just sick of everything and i was like "whatever i'll just take the fucking couch" (and i don't normally have a bad mouth ... but i was pissed). and yeah i laid on the couch and just felt like crying because i dunno i was just so pissed off and upset about the events of the night. anyway yeah so i was laying on the couch and at this point in time the other josh and angie were in the bathroom cuz she was booting and he was taking care of her. after awhile kayla came out and was like "omg mandy you have no idea" and i'm just like "what kayla..." as she fucking rolls over on top of me over the top of the couch. soo as she's laying on me she's like "you have no idea what's going on in that room" and i'm like that's great kayla just go pee (cuz she told me she had to) and then she got up and went upstairs to the bathroom ... then came back down and went back in the room. i sat there texting everyone i thought was awake cuz i was so fucking pissed and like crying i felt like such a douche bag and i seriously just wanted to talk to someone that cared about me ... but yeah it was sooo late and of course no one was up. so yeah after awhile (& when angie was done being sick) josh brought her out to the couch and he laid on the floor. i had like a 2 hour conversation with him about kayla ... it was really great to know i'm no the only one who gets fucking annoyed with her. so yeah we talked and then went to bed. THEEEEN this morning came. and yeah we helped josh clean and then kayla got in my car and was like "i did something bad last night" and i was just like ... wow i don't even want to hear this .. but yeah turns out everytime her and josh went for a "walk" they left to makeout ... which wow like i didn't know ... and then i guess when they were in his fucking room she was sucking him off and THEEEEN to top it all off she ended up FUCKING HIM. she lost her virginity when she was wasted with one of our closest friends ... i was so mad. and she acted like things were cool between us. GRRRRRRRR ugggh. just a bad bad bad night. i hate when i feel so invisible. seriously all night i just felt like ... no one even knows i'm here ... no one would care if i left ... no one fucking cares. it was awful. you know when you get that horrible feeling in the pit of your stomach when you feel like shit ... yeah i had that all night into today ... seriously as i write this my eyes are like tearing up. why am i such a fucking douche bag gosh. idiot.

[ sorry for all the curse words ... there are alot ]

and p.s. -- am i the only fucking girl left in the world that isn't a dirty whore? seriously.